It wasn't supposed to be like this.
I'm a failure in life.
I don't want to look in the mirror.
This is a conspiracy.

Studying is boring.
It's frustrating to obey other else.
I want to have fun.
I don't take orders from anyone

I want to live my life the way I want to live it

The god inside me says.
"It's a wonderful life."
A life that God praises.
But it isn't.
It's not a great life.
Not even a luxurious life.
God lied.

He's has a glamorous life.
She's a beautiful figure.
They're all glamorous.
They're complaining.
And yet they're glamorous.

They make themselves look respectable.
They're being strong.

Restricted by others from doing what I do.
Frustrating to obey others.
I can't say what I think.
Worry about what others think of me.

I can't stand it.
I live my life the way I want to.
I put myself first in everything.
What's wrong with that?

Someone who was jealous humiliated me.

The god inside me says.
"It's a wonderful life."
A life that God praises.
But it isn't.
It's not a great life.
Not even a luxurious life.
God lied.