Yesterday’s righteousness
melts into the dawn
Hope spills through the hole
inside my pocket
A heartbeat weighed
by somebody else’s rules
I live only because
I still can’t die

“They say scars are medals,”
someone told me once
But I was never strong enough
to wear them with pride
Still
still
still
I can’t throw this day away
And every breath
makes the whole world creak

I grin at life
inside this broken world
I only learned
how to cry
Even if my worth
and my time get stolen away
This feeling alone
I won’t let them take
Broken, but I’m still standing here
If you call that defeat
Then I’ll laugh at today itself
Together with this life of mine

They tell us to live
but never taught us how
No right answers
only endless mistakes
And still
still
still
still
still
still
my heart refuses to stop

At the station before sunrise
abandoned voices linger
Somebody else’s future
passes right through me
I learned how to give up
But never
how to disappear

Pretty words
never reached my chest
But ugly honesty
still feels warm
Even carrying
the urge to vanish
I chose
to survive again

I laugh in the face of life
Though this world
makes no sense at all
Maybe this laughter
is just to keep
from losing myself
Not for pride
Not to protect anything

I laugh in the face of life
Just to keep moving forward
Meaningless
Pathetic
Even so
making it this far
is proof enough
It doesn’t have to be for anyone else
I don’t need saving anymore
I’ll live
my own damn way
And burn this life
the way I choose

Tomorrow scares me
because somewhere deep inside
I still expect something
So today again
I breathe in
and laugh in the face of life

Laugh at life