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Rin’s surgery couldn’t be said successful. Yet. She was in comatose state now and her life was depended heavily on how fast she could wake up. And should she wake up, she would live in the world of silent and darkness forever as she was now blind and deaf. The accident had injured her eyes and ears permanently.

Len might have been banned from seeing Rin, but knowing Len, he wouldn’t let anyone stop him from meeting the girl of his life. Every night, at midnight, he would sneak in and check on her. He would stay until it was almost dawn, holding her hands, praying she would open her eyes while whispering his sorry over and over again into her ears although he himself knew she wouldn’t able hear him. When he got the news that Rin would forever walking alone in the dark and silent, his friends had to tied him up so that he wouldn’t banging his head to the wall any further even after blood already dripping from his forehead. Len cursed himself. He never stopped cursing himself.

“Rin… Rin… I’m sorry… I’m sorry… Don’t forgive me, Rin… For making you live like this, I truly am sorry but don’t forgive me, Rin…”

Len carefully lifted Rin’s full of bandages body and brought her to his embrace. Tears didn’t stop dropping to her cheeks. Really, Len was no different to Rin. He was now living in the darkness and silent too since he couldn’t see anything if there was no Rin in the view. He couldn’t hear anything if there was no her voice blended in the noise. A week passed by Len crying embracing her tightly every night.

One day, he got a news that Rin had finally opened her eyes. Upon hearing it, Len was… He felt like the blind covering him had been removed. He was so happy that he forgot everything happened around him. He thanked God over and over. He really wanted to go and see her even if that meant he had to skip school but then he remembered her parents must be there and he wouldn’t be allowed to see her. The day went too slowly as Len impatiently waiting for the night to fall.

Len was finally able to sneak into the hospital. His mind was full with the image of Rin smiling to him but what he found was the crying Rin and then it all came back to him. To Rin, he was her enemy. Rin had only smiled to him once, their first meeting. Because of him Rin got into accident.

[Rin is… Rin is… blinded and deafened by… me…]

The world had never been fair, hadn’t it? When Len knew Rin had opened her eyes, he was so happy that his blinded eyes finally could see again. But, Rin’s could never see again. On the way to the hospital, Len could hear his happy humming. But, Rin could never hear her beautiful voice ever again. Everything had come back to him; his sight, his hearing, Rin. But nothing came back to Rin. Len bit his lips so hard until it bleed while tears forming in his eyes. Slowly he approached the girl and patted her head.

“Who?” Her voice was different. Not from the tears she shed but… the accident, no, Len took her beautiful voice too. Len could only gasp and stare blankly when he realized he had took the beautiful voice he always listened to singing every night.

Rin took his hand and groped until she almost reached his face. Len opened his tied hair and let it loose to his shoulder so when Rin touched the kinda long hair, she would think he was a girl. He didn’t think she would want ‘Len’ to visit her.

“Who are you?” Rin asked again with her unfocused eyes.

Rin pointed her palm signing him to write his name there but Len didn’t do anything. He didn’t want Rin to cast him away just because she knew who he was. Rin looked disappointed not knowing who he was but she didn’t mind it too long. In just a short time Rin already talked a lot to him while he held her hands tightly and sometimes patting her head. It was like a dream came true for Len as Rin was now talking to him a lot. But the situation was so wrong. Len cried seeing her unfocused eyes. He cried hearing her husky voice. He cried knowing she couldn’t hear his sobs.

All she talked was about what Len had done to her and how she hated him to hell. Each word she spoke stabbed his heart hard and he took it all because he knew he deserve it. He really wished he could replace her becoming blind and deaf like she wished. Then she went quite all of the sudden while staring blankly. She gripped his hand tighter.

“It’s dark…”
Len replied her grip.

“It’s quite...”
Tears started forming again in both the boy and the girl’s eyes.

“I’m scared!”

Len hugged Rin tightly and patted her head as both wept together. Rin fell asleep short after when Len was stroking her hand gently. Ever since then Len would sneaked into her room and Rin did all the talking. She didn’t always talked about her hate toward him she would also talk about her hobby, what she likes and dislikes, and any kind of fun things so she could forget her misery but the darkness kept on lingering in her eyes and silent haunted her forever. She told him how fun and good life she would had if only Len never came into her life. The boy in talk only responded by patting her head while struggling to held back his tears. He didn’t have any right to shed tears. He was the cause of all of these after all. Whatever Rin say, he would take it all.

“What is your name?” Rin suddenly asked. Len gave no reply.

“Who are you?” Len still didn’t respond. His hand which held Rin’s didn’t make any move and he looked down.

"Tell you what? The doctor said he will open my bandage tomorrow! Then I can finally walk again! Tell you, broken bone is so painful! I'm glad it'll soon be over now!"

The new news lifted up Len’s face. It was a very good news! Rin had stayed on the bed for too long. Len was as happy as Rin and he pat her head. Rin seemed to like him patting her head. Her smile was very beautiful. How Len though she would never gave him such smile if she knew who he really was. If only he wasn’t what he was now.

(To be continued...)